Blog Title Change

I have began to blog again. It has been awhile and a great deal has been going own. I have changed the name of my blog because I am continually being shown that I have a lack of faith. You might ask, faith in what? I resemble the man in the book of Mark in the Holy Scriptures when he tells Christ that he believes but "help me with my unbelief." As my family continues along this journey into missions and begin raising support I see that our God is large. I also see my wife and children growing in their understanding of God and the gift he so freely gave. I marvel at the fact that we serve a God that works through us as broken vessels. The Lord has shown me that every thing that I am, love, possess, and desire is His. This process is ongoing and I continually see Him stripping away my idols. I look at my children- they are God's. That has been something that has truly been tough. I see how I desire to protect them from the world and all it has to offer. In reality my attempt to protect is hindering their opportunity to see God work through things in their lives just as He did and continues to do in my life. I look back at my life growing up and see the hand of God all over the place. I can look back and say "God you were in control of my life from birth." How can I say He want be in control of my kids lives. I can and do because I don't believe. It is the constant struggle. It is what I continually war with. The same goes for my wife. She desires stability, so we live a life of transition. Go Figure!

"He is no fool who gives up what he can't keep to gain that which he cannot lose." Jim Elliot