Need to Speak

I have decided to blog again. It is really so I can clear my thoughts. I need to share what I am thinking at times to be able to process what is happening in my life. We have been traveling a good bit lately and have not been at our home church in several Sundays. We are actually leaving again on Weds. to go down to the Gulf Coast through next Thursday. God has given us opportunities to speak to a couple of churches. I am truly missing corporate worship with my church family. It is truly interesting to experience the theological beliefs of different denominations. At times I wonder why we must raise support and actually feel discouraged. My desire is to be in England but the Lord has us in a place that constantly has me torn between Moody and Culcheth. My flesh tends to ask why the house want sell and why is the economy so bad right when we are raising support. The Waldecker family in England is having to come home due to the lack of funds. They were a family we would be working with in Manchester, it looks like they will come home for at least a year. I know the Kunars are a little discouraged. I know that this will probably allow someone else to step up and it will strengthen the church there. I am amazed at Gods faithfulness to his people and learning that his way of doing things never really happens the way I expect. BUT, it happens in such a way that He is most glorified. Even if I am desiring to go to England to see the Gospel transform a people. Which you would think is a very good thing. Which it is. God is about Himself, not me getting to where I want to be when I want to get there. All we are to be about is Christ. He is sufficient- nothing else is. Everything we see will not last. I wonder if we truly realize how much we have and really don't need. I am convicted of my selfishness and covetousness as I read of Paul and the people who traveled with him and those brothers and sisters who are struggling to make ends meet around the world. My heart is broken as the American church tends to spend money frivolously on themselves or on things that have nothing at all to do with the Gospel. My prayer is for a new reformation. Not because it sounds cute and trendy in reformed circles. But for the purpose of glorifying God through lives being transformed, which is not cute but very uncomfortable.

Learning through discomfort
Trace